reign

Your innocence on me.

N'uff said

you have won my heart.

Please don't be reading this. I have high hopes that you either read this all yesterday, or forgot entirely about it. I'm aiming more for the second one- hopefully!

But eitherway, i wanted someone, anyone to know I feel incrediably happy. I feel as though I'm setting myslef up but I feel again,I'm not numb

And guess what sir? I did art. Its a big deal, its been a long time since I have done anything hald expressive


Conclution: its 8:30 am on. Wendsday, normally I'd be sleeping, on this fine morning I woke up early, and you were first thing that crossed my mind. Don't hurt me svp

xxx

"Those who forget the past

Are condemned to repeat it"
-George Santana


I don't think anyone even follows this anymore, as before everyones forgotten me, my fear of abandonment and anxiety from it all put the hospital no more than a month ago.

but nonetheless I am not afraid to admit before I moved here:
-i lied
-i stole
-i cheated

Three things I am not proud of, have I moved on from it? Yes. Will I go back to it? No way in hell. I'm proud of who I have become. Although I can't change or erase the facts, I can move forward from them.

If you'll let me?
Love you, eventhough I shouldn't

I've mended myself, made myself better, today i learn to breath again.



That being said I feel like one of my closest is slipping away, its not attatchment from the orgasms or joy you bring me. You're my safe place, I don't mean that in an intimate way whatso ever but in the sense that if I was ever to be hurt, abandoned or ruined. I feel like you would have my back. But lately I feel that slipping.

Conclution: I miss playing power rangers with you, laughing non stop and hanging out. Will things ever be normal? Who am I to say, but until you get through your rut, ill be waiting.