we are sinking
can't you see that everyones screaming?
we're going down were going down.
You were right all along, i am a stupid girl.
I make, made and will make dumb decisions.
Im afraid of commitment, and having sometimes solid in my life because i never have had sterdy ground my whole life.
I make excuses and won't bury my past. I always am looking for something better and don't see that the best thing for me is right in front of my face.
My constant search will be my demise , i could almost put money on it.
BUT, you were wrong about a lot too.
I am a very strong individual, im truthful, i cleaned up my life and im stronger than i have ever been.
im smarter than you or anyone you know because my average is double yours and i dont sit at home all day and isolate myself from the reality of what i have done. I have a good heart, strong drive and a personality bigger than anyone i know.
im real
you still live in your dream world
wake up!
4.5.09
it was once written
about me, that
my fear of love will be the death of me,
iv never been so sure of something in my whole life.
_____________________
The reason's why you
could not love me
They were all
Foreshadowed from your past,
Pushing yourself away
from what you start to care for.
Carrying a heart,
You could never love back
Your fear of loving
will be the death of you someday,
You'll be the first to find out
the question of all questions,
Life without love?
Cuz from what you say in my ear,
And I know from your words
when your game is played time and time again,
You'll wish he had my eyes,
You'll wish his hands were mine,
You'll wish he said all the things
that I said to make you smile.
But I guess the way we fit so perfect
had to be molded sometime,
We chose to let this die
when we wanted it so bad.
Its not about me anymore
its about you,
your life,
your wants,
your heart,
your choices.
just know,
We did it right
I Often see your face when I close my eyes,
Grasping a pillow under my arms so gently,
But it never quite cut it,
it never quite filled the cracks,
in our mold that was smashed apart
what we had was real,
so don't disguise your fear to love
with your fear to hurt.
Ask Yourself
what is life without love?
I couldn't say.
But hey, There is no love without fear right?
my fear of love will be the death of me,
iv never been so sure of something in my whole life.
_____________________
The reason's why you
could not love me
They were all
Foreshadowed from your past,
Pushing yourself away
from what you start to care for.
Carrying a heart,
You could never love back
Your fear of loving
will be the death of you someday,
You'll be the first to find out
the question of all questions,
Life without love?
Cuz from what you say in my ear,
And I know from your words
when your game is played time and time again,
You'll wish he had my eyes,
You'll wish his hands were mine,
You'll wish he said all the things
that I said to make you smile.
But I guess the way we fit so perfect
had to be molded sometime,
We chose to let this die
when we wanted it so bad.
Its not about me anymore
its about you,
your life,
your wants,
your heart,
your choices.
just know,
We did it right
I Often see your face when I close my eyes,
Grasping a pillow under my arms so gently,
But it never quite cut it,
it never quite filled the cracks,
in our mold that was smashed apart
what we had was real,
so don't disguise your fear to love
with your fear to hurt.
Ask Yourself
what is life without love?
I couldn't say.
But hey, There is no love without fear right?
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